What week is it?? Oh...5 Weeks Post Surgery, almost 8 Weeks Post Crash

So the title of this entry...at this point I have no idea where I'm at!  Surgery and the accident are long gone and now I'm shoulder deep in rehab.  And one word....OUCH!  The crash: one event, it happened...surgery: one event, it happened...rehab---appts 3 x a week: 10 out of 10 on the pain scale, exercises 2-3 x a day:  self inflicted pain...it's a psychological roller coaster.  Sometimes it crosses my mind that I should just stop pushing, accept that my shoulder is not what it once was, and move on...all because of the pain, stiffness, soreness...but then I realize that no matter what I do, the pain, stiffness, and soreness will be there.  I wake up every morning with those 3 words affecting my shoulder (it feels like what I imagine a 90 year old feels like getting out of bed, but for them it's every joint).   The first thought in my mind is, geeze, if I had a race today, this shoulder makes me doubt if I would enjoy the challenge of racing when my body is not an "army of one."

Then there's the good news:  most of the soreness happens because now I can use my right arm!  I can finally shake hands without concern, lift Sophia up with both arms (versus the one handed swop technique), let Sophia lay next to my right arm...it's come a long way!  My range of motion seems to get better literally day by day---the stiffness and soreness is always there, but that's due to the constant workout my right arm is getting versus the 5+ weeks it spent motionless in the sling.  I've been on the bike trainer a fair amount, and I can comfortably place both hands on the bar...I have a follow up appt this week with Dr Amit, so hopefully I'll be back on the road next weekend---I'm even tempted to try it out this weekend, but I told myself to not rush this thing and to listen to the pros.   AS a side note, I've been taking Calcium/ Vitamin D complex from Solgar for a week now (before I was taking Kirkland Brand...just decided to switch on a recent trip to Whole Foods)...it's impossible to say I have noticed a difference, but the combo is ideal for bone formation, so I've been told.

Final notes on this week:  it feels like, for the most part, that the clavicle union has occurred, even though some times (especially after intense PT sessions), that the bone is still in two pieces...we will just have to wait until this weeks appt.  The muscles and tendons are definitely feeling like they are loosening up, and Brandon and Nate are telling me it is progressing well...I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but the end of the tunnel is only the beginning---I'm not giving in for anything but full range of motion, or at least giving it my all to get as close as possible.